Yeah, I know it's Christmas, and I should be happy, but I'm not. I feel like my world and my life are crashing all around me, and there are people who are my friends, but they have no idea what I'm going through in my head because I don't talk about it on social media. There is one person I want to tell what's going on, but he's not really talking to me, and I don't put the blame on him, but I'm a mess. It's hard for me to tell people what's going on, even if I trust them, because it's hard.